Ruth no longer trusts her body.

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So yes, this has affected me psychologically, for sure. And emotionally, just not knowing how you’re going to be in a few hours, or the next day, makes you not trust your body. I knew my body very well. You know, symptoms, like signs. I just knew it so well. And I was so healthy prior to this. And now it’s taken, I want to say a year and a half for me to know my body again, to some degree. And it’s almost like a disconnect, like before, it was like my mind, body and soul are all together. But now it kind of feels like your body is in a whole other spectrum. And it does things that you can’t control. After they start happening, I might do, I might take a medication to help it. But it just starts doing different things. And it makes you, I don’t know, it just makes me sad. And it just makes me like not trust my body. Because I just don’t have control over it. If really the mind can control everything, maybe it can, but I haven’t reached that stage. If I could just control it with my mind, that would be amazing. But you can’t, it’s just my body just does something and I don’t know. And emotionally, oh, goodness, it’s made me quite sensitive actually.

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